Failed…

*How much I miss writing, have been busy these days, lack of idea, a bit of stress, and many more, but I’ve made it again today! Here we go… sorry for bad grammar btw*

I’m failed. Again. For the second time. In the same lecturer, same courses. Huft… I wanna breathe a long breath. I keep blaming the teacher, because I feel so confident and sure I can get through this, but sadly it doesn’t work as I wanted it to use to be. However, when I asked myself, what do I do during this courses, I realize. It was my fault. It was me, not the lecturer. Yes I can, it’s true I could master this lessons, and the cause of failure is my behavior along this course. Maximizing the absent ration, cheat homework, sleep during class. If I’m diligent, I won’t be failed.

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For the first I feel very bad, disappointed, sad. But, hey! I learn something from this incident. Not all failure, means to knock you down. In odd moments, you have to failed first to success. Because you never realize what’s wrong with you. Like me, I realize what is my fault, accept it, and then learn from that mistakes. I shouldn’t be like that, I should be like this. Besides, I got a benefit, I must learn this class again which means 3 times, and the others only one. That’s mean I could dominate this courses more than the others. (Think the positive side, if you always think the negative side, you will stuck in the same place and never go forward.)

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Some people just quit after every failure. They won’t try again, try again, until they success. I tell you this, Thomas Edison failed 1,000 times, and the 1,001 the light bulb worked! And the amazing things, he said “I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps.”

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Failure is a stepping stone to achieving success. Once you have failed, you need to get up and try again. Failure doesn’t mean you’re worse than others, it’s mean you just reach success a little bit late than others. Successful people must have failed, many times. If you achieve the success easily, it isn’t a success.

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Be careful when you always succeed, life isn’t that easy. Don’t chase perfection. You will be very very upset if you failed. Perfectionist people can’t accept failure. They must know that failure will bring them to success, you can’t ever see success if you’re not passing a failure.

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I hope, everybody could understand, failure isn’t mean the worlds end. You have to get up, and try again, use the past experiences as a lesson. So that you can be successful person and have a positive effect to the people around you. Be though! 🙂

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Learn and Think Before Judge

Hola! A month already passing by. This time I’m gonna talk something that really annoy me these day. So, have you ever judge someone by your first impression or by what media or other people thinks and talks? Well. Then you’re same with me. Sometimes I judge people by what I see first or by what other people think. And I realize that is not a good choices to judge people.

I know every person in this earth have a different brain and it produce different mind. Instead of you being grown up on a rich and proper family or poor and improper that it build up your mind so it comes out with different thoughts. We can’t force poeple to have a same mind with us so we need to learn this.

Before you judge someone you already known for the first time, get to know with it more deeper and learn it from other aspect. For example, when I was driving on my way to campus, I always get mad for people who drives slowly in front of me so he/she block my way. I just hate it and I want to horn them.

But I awake I need to be more patience and see that he/she maybe is sleepy, maybe they vehicles are old or broken, maybe they’re old people, maybe they’re sick, maybe they’re just learn how to drive and scared. 

Sometimes I also get mad for people that drives without rules and as they pleases. And again I need to be awake and be more patience. Maybe they’re late to work, maybe they’re have something urgent, or maybe they’re don’t know the rule so they’re drive that way.

Or maybe you see your crush taking photos or going out with other guy or girl instead you known him/her, ask him/her first, don’t judge too quickly. 

Maybe he/she’s he/she’s cousins, friends, or brother/sisters, don’t make your own judgement if you don’t know the truth. You’ll get ashamed by your own judgement.

Or maybe you hear it from someone, then you see it by yourself, once again, ask! If you accept the statement of other people it’s like you ate what other peoples has already eat. So that mean you ate other people puke. And I thought it tastes good right? ‘Cause many people judge that way hahah.

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71 YEARS OF INDONESIA INDEPENDENCE DAY

Aloha! I’ve been busy, got a problem that really dropped me down, and stuck of idea, got nothing positive to share, and I’m back!

Today is Indonesia Independence Day, 17th August 2016 and it’s already 71 years since that moment when Ir. Soekarno proclaim our freedom and independence.

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First of all, I really really must to say a very very big thank you to God that He keep an eye for my country and all this 71 years Indonesia still on His hand. All that politics stuff and any other problems in this country, we could still handle it and it’s all because our God still guide us and protect us.

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Indonesia is the biggest archipelago country in the world, with many nature resources and many ethnic, with much folk language. I’m so proud to be Indonesian even sometimes I feel ashamed because of our behavior. I really really love Indonesian nature and culture. I love Indonesia uniqueness because thats the point of Indonesia to other countries.

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This era, is very different era with 10 years ago, people usually would like to go to the mall, cafe, or hangout rather than go to the museum or patriot cemetery. People usually would like to buy fancy stuff rather than history CD’s or books. People usually would like to the popular Idol rather than our patriot who’s fall on the battlefield. That’s okay I think, because we’re on different era as long as we’re not forgot to their services to our country.

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But it’s unfortunate, some of us still act immaturity to some problems, especially political and entertainment problems. I hope we could be more mature to face a problem like this, and I really really hope we stop priority our ego and stop act childish. We got a lot of resources and we could be a develop country if we stop priority our ego and stop act childish. I’m sure that works 100%.

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On this year, 2016, I pray to God that He will always keep an eye of Indonesia, never let go Indonesia from His hand, and asking for blessings to our country that He will always give the best for Indonesia, even we must fight through the rainstorm first to see the beautiful rainbow behind. Yah, hopefully Indonesia will always more prosperous, safe, and peace.

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P.S. I wrote this on English, not because I don’t love Indonesia but because I want other people from other country could see this and be respect to our country.

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10 Reasons to Smile

First of all pardon my English if it’s not right. Please correct me if I’m wrong.

So hello! It’s been a while since the last blog I wrote. And here I’m now writing a new content for all of you who read this, anywhere and everywhere I hope you guys enjoy your life and be happy. Why? Why I need to be happy? I know you guys got a lot of problems and maybe no one knows exactly what’s happen like me. But I keep smiling, yea why? Why we I need to keep smiling? I got a 99 problems and you ain’t one! Haha that’s just a lyrics from Ari’s songs. And below I write down 10 reasons to keep smile.

1. Because you only live once.

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Every people in this earth in any kind are only live for once. Why do we fill our life with sadness and sorrow? I’m not telling you that I can’t be sad. We feel sad even if we won’t but when you’re finished with that, it’s time for you to rise, time for you to go out and look around, fill your life with new passion, throw all the things that maybe will make you sad or become more sad. And now, SMILE!

2. Because you’re smile is charming!

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Hey, don’t laugh when I said that you’re smile is charming! Every people’s smiles are charming in their own way! Maybe some people think that you’re smile is weird or maybe ugly but hey! Believe me there must be one person in this planet that telling you that you’re smile is charming!

3. Because you’re smile can save one people.

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Maybe you’re not realize that a smile could change a whole life for one person. Have you ever been thinking the effect of your smile? For me, if I saw a person smiling, all the anger inside me is cooling down. Moreover if the person who is smiling is a beggar or starving people on the street. I feel like they should be happy and all the sadnes anger is gone away. They made me affected.

4. Because you’re smile is the reason for someone to live.

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Did you know how many people live in this love is loving you so much? Example your parents. Even how much you hate them or feel disgusted maybe (?) When they see you smile they will be smiling too, know they’re child is happy. Or said that your parents not loving you or something like that. Your friends, I mean your besties would feel happy too if they see you smile. Or said you’re not having any besties or even friends. Your couple. Is the best reason for you to smile, ya maybe him/her make you sad sometimes but I’m sure they’re also number one reason for your smile right?

5. Because more you smile, more metabolism rise in your body.

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Have you ever heard that the more you sad or the more you angry then the more you’re metabolism system drop. So if you read this, if you wanna be bachelor, get married, have 3 or 4 children or more, see your kids go to high school, have a grandchild, growing old together with your couple, do not feel sad or frequently angry. Why? Because if you’re metabolism system drop, you’ll get sick easier and hard to get well soon. Remember all of your cells in your body is only care about you!

6. Because you’ll learn to be sincere.

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Sometimes, something bad happens. Even if we’re not asking for that. Many people said “shit happens”. But, from that moments you’ll learn to be sincere for whatever happen, you must keep going on. Don’t look down, raise your head and keep smiling so people will know that you’re the strong person.

7. Because you’re special!

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Hey, cheer up! There’s none like you in this world. You’re one and the only one. You can’t copycat yourself. Even twins have a different fingerprint. See? Every people in this world have a different fingerprint that means you are special and unique! Because there’s nobody else like you! You may think that somebody might be better than you but you need to remember that maybe he or she not better in something that you can do. Example, for a girl, you might see somebody more prettier, more sexy, popular, rich, talented. But maybe you could do some housework like sweeping, swabing, wash the dishes, do some laundry, ironing, and many more that she couldn’t do. So, there is the reason for you to smile!

8. Because that’s mean you are tough.

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You are stronger than you think. You just never feel it because you’re not in recessive situation. If you’re in panic situation, without any sense, you become more stronger and powerful than you think. You’re just not realize it.

9. Because it affect your mood in one day.

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You just gonna fulfill your day with a bad mood all the day or be happy? Well, even there is something bad happen, remember the reason for you to smile on the above. When you wake up, start your day with a smile and thankful to God for a good day that He gives. Even there’s a storm or thunder, keep smile. Maybe God was sad, so if He seeing you smile maybe He will become happy! Hahaha, no this just a joke.

10. Because you deserve it.

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Deserve what? You all who read this deserve to smile. God was made you with a hope that you could be smile in any situation. Bad or good, sad or happy. God doesn’t made a lips to be sullen. He made it to smile! So why you still turn down your lips?

Terkadang…

Terkadang, ingin rasanya aku mati. Aku ingin tahu siapa saja yang mempedulikan aku. Atau setidaknya masuk Rumah Sakit saja yang dimana diriku benar-benar harus pakai bantuan tabung oksigen. Aku ingin tahu siapa saja yang benar-benar sayang padaku dan tidak sanggup kehilangan diriku dan pada akhirnya menyesal.

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Terkadang, ingin rasanya aku bisa membaca pikiran orang-orang disekitar supaya aku tahu apa yang mereka pikirkan tentangku. Apa pandangan mereka tentangku apakah aku dinilai negatif atau positif. Supaya aku bisa memperbaiki diri dan menjadi lebih baik lagi.

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Terkadang, aku merasa tidak ada seorang pun yang mengerti diriku. Ya Tuhan memang ada, namun aku memerlukan sosok nyata dalam hidupku. Aku rasa tidak ada seorang pun yang mengerti rasanya jadi diriku dan berada pada posisiku. Semua nasihat yang kalian katakan itu salah. Tidak bisa begitu karena kalian tidak mengerti.

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Terkadang, mereka yang tidak mengerti diri kita, tidak mengerti permasalahan kita, tidak mengerti kondisi dan situasi kita justru pernah mengalami hal yang bahkan lebih pahit dan menyakitkan dari kita. Ya, tentu saja cerita mereka tidak sama. Tapi mungkin sakit hati dan kekecewaan yang dialami sama. Namun mereka berhasil melaluinya sehingga mereka mampu menasihati kita. Meskipun kita merasa kita tidak mampu melangkah lagi, semudah itukah kita menyerah? Jika Thomas Edison berenti mencoba pada percobaan ke 999, tidak ada lampu saat ini.

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Terkadang, aku merasa orang lain  lebih beruntung daripadaku! Mereka punya segalanya! Mereka punya gadget keluaran terbaru! Mereka cantik! Mereka punya pacar yang tampan! Mereka populer! Mereka bawa Mobil ke kampus! Mereka perawatan di salon ternama! Mereka bisa makan enak di restoran atau kafe mahal setiap hari! Baju yang mereka pakai branded! Begitu pula dengan tas dan sepatu! Mengapa diriku tidak??!! Kadang aku berpikir aku adalah manusia paling sial dan malang karena tidak memiliki apa yang dimiliki oleh orang lain. Iri. Sifat alami manusia yang tidak bisa dipungkiri.

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Namun tahukah bahwa terkadang, orang yang punya gadget terbaru itu harus bekerja keras untuk membelinya? Terkadang, mereka yang cantik karena make up tidak pede dengan dirinya yang tidak memakai make up, tidak sulam alis, sulam bibir, dsb. Terkadang, mereka yang punya pacar tampan belum tentu menjalin hubungan yang sehat. Terkadang, mereka yang populer menghadapi Star Syndrome karena tidak tahan menghadapi fans-fans yang brutal atau bahkan haters yang begitu keji. Terkadang, mereka yang bawa Mobil ke kampus adalah mereka yang membeli Mobil dengan kredit cicilan yang harus dilunasi tiap bulannya. Terkadang, mereka yang perawatan di salon ternama harus rela kehilangan uang hanya demi penampilan cantik. Terkadang, mereka yang bisa makan enak setiap hari nya harus membayar harga dengan olahraga demi tubuh yang indah atau sehat. Terkadang, mereka yang memakai baju, tas, dan sepatu branded membelinya di Toko-Toko murah (KW) demi menjaga trend.

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Terkadang, aku iri pada mereka yang dilahirkan di keluarga yang harmonis. Papa yang pengertian, mama yang baik, adik kakak yang menyenangkan. Kalau boleh memilih, aku tidak ingin lahir dalam keluarga seperti ini. Papa dan mama bertengkar setiap hari. Adik dan kakak yang mencemoohku. Rasanya tidak bisa sehari saja aku hidup normal dalam ketentraman.

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Namun terkadang, kita hanya melihat luarnya saja. Terlihat harmonis dan sejahtera. Entah apa di dalamnya yang mungkin lebih buruk dari yang kita bayangkan tapi ditutupi dengan akting yang sangat rapih seolah mereka adalah keluarga harmonis.

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Terkadang, aku iri dengan mereka yang bebas. Bebas melakukan apapun, bebas memiliki apapun, bebas pergi kemanapun tanpa ada hambatan, tanpa ada halangan, tanpa ada tentangan. Mengapa aku harus terkekang seperti ini? Untuk aktif dalam kegiatan organisasi di kampus saja aku tidak bisa. Pertemananku dibatasi. Pacaran dilarang. Tidak ada kenyamanan!

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Tahukah kalian bahwa terkadang, orang yang bebas tidaklah bahagia. Terkadang mereka tidak bisa menemukan kebahagiaan dalam keluarga mereka. Terkadang mereka merasa tidak diperhatikan. Mereka merasa tidak ada seorang pun yang peduli. Tidak ada yang mencari mereka ketika mereka pulang malam. Bahkan sampai melarikan diri ke dalam hawa nafsu dunia.

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Terkadang aku iri dengan mereka yang begitu populer dan memiliki banyak teman. Semua orang kenal dan mengetahui mereka! Sedangkan aku, aku hanyalah semut kecil yang bahkan tak nampak di mata mereka.

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Terkadang kalian tidak tahu bahwa mereka yang memiliki banyak teman belum tentu benar itu teman. Mungkin saja itu semua kemunafikan belaka. Pencitraan. Bahkan mungkin orang-orang mendekatinya hanya untuk mendapat keuntungan dari dirinya saja.

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Terkadang, aku merasa kita perlu melihat dari berbagai sisi sebelum kita berpikir dan menentukan tindakan yang akan kita lakukan.

Open Your Mindset

Hidup ini banyak tekanan. Mulai dari orang tua, teman, pacar, bahkan orang lain yang kita ga kenal pun nuntut kita. Beban yang harus kita pikul itu berat. Sakit hati, amarah, dendam, caci maki adalah cara menyalurkan berbagai ketidaksetujuan kita terhadap tekanan tersebut. Tuntutan demi tuntutan yang harus dijalani seringkali tidak terpenuhi sehingga menimbulkan lebih banyak tekanan dan beban pikiran yang pada akhirnya menjerumuskan kita ke dalam jurang yang dalam. Dunia menawarkan kenikmatan masa kini berupa seks, alkohol, narkotika, dsb. Daya tarik yang ditimbulkan oleh jurang maut itu begitu intens hingga sekali kita jatuh ke dalamnya, rasanya mustahil untuk keluar dari situ. Terlepas dari itu, selain jurang yang dalam, ada pula monster pemakan otak yang seringkali tidak kita sadari. Berhati-hatilah! Bila ia sudah datang, hatimu akan mati dan pikiranmu menjadi miliknya. Tanpa disadari monster itu menjadikanmu pembunuh keji berdarah dingin yang tak kenal ampun. Jurang dan monster tersebut berada di tempat yang sama dan dapat diakses dengan mudah melalui teknologi yang sedang kita pegang di tangan kita saat ini. Tapi entah mengapa, sekalipun mendapat tekanan sesulit dan sebesar apapun itu, aku tidak pernah jatuh ke dalam jurang tersebut maupun masuk ke dalam sarang si monster. Namun beberapa kali sempat terpikir untuk masuk ke salah satu tempat itu. Tapi, bagaimana nanti dengan reputasi kita? Jangan pikirkan reputasi orang yang menyakiti kita, pikirkanlah reputasi dan nama baik kita! Bukankah kita semua ingin kehidupan yang indah dan berakhir manis seperti Dongeng? Yang menjadi penghalang impian indah tersebut bukanlah siapa-siapa melainkan diri kita sendiri. Akibat tekanan-tekanan itulah timbul kebiasaan menghakimi diri sendiri dan kepercayaan pada diri sendiri pun hilang. Kita mengklaim diri kita tidak mampu memenuhi standar yang ditekankan oleh orang-orang tersebut. Kita tidak lagi percaya pada intuisi kita melainkan percaya dan mematok standar tersebut berdasarkan tuntutan yang dibebankan pada kita. Ingatlah bahwa kehidupan ini milik kita, bukan milik mereka! Kita yang menjalani hidup ini, bukan mereka! Tuntutan dan tekanan yang dilontarkan sebenarnya adalah acuan untuk mengasah diri supaya standar yang ditetapkan oleh diri kita sendiri menjadi lebih baik! Percayalah pada diri sendiri bahwa kita mampu melakukan semua hal tersebut dan buatlah orang-orang itu bangga atau bahkan MALU atas pernyataan mereka! Cara membalas tuntutan dan tekanan tersebut adalah kita harus selalu satu tingkat diatas mereka. Dengan begitu, apa yang menjadi standar kita jauh diatas standar yang mereka ekspetasikan. Hidup memang milik kita, kita bebas melakukan apapun yang kita mau asal kita siap menghadapi konsekuensinya dan tidak lari dari tanggung jawab tersebut. Be positive!

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Be Postive!

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